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It's All Her Fault

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I have not felt this pain for such a long, long time. I have not cried with such a depth of feeling for an even longer time. The tears used to be for me, myself. Now they are for all the little children. I remember. I remember getting beat in the head. Whipped with a 1" wide leather colt training strap. Beat with open hands-my head as a ping pong ball. I remember feeling like I had little to no clothes and less toys. I remember being hungry-hurting because I was so hungry. She said listen to this song. I know you'll like it. She knows. She knows my history AND she knows how much I love little children. She knows how I have sobbed over Ethan Stacey's murder. So I listened. And I sobbed. Not for me this time. For Ethan. For the children trapped in poverty and abuse throughout the world. I sobbed. I now sob. Father protect them. Father I wish I could rescue them. Prayer of the Children by InsideOut Can you hear the prayer of the children?  On bended knee, in the shadow of an

What is Love?

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I liked the movie. It got me thinking. I could really feel Shrek's pain. The same old thing happening again and again. Same routine. Groundhog day scenario. The rut of life, of raising a family. The frustration and anger building. Poor Shrek. He needed to learn to placate himself-self soothe. I'm sure if the story were written from Fiona's perspective there would have been times and moments her emotions went that way too. That's just the way it is. That's the way we are. Like pendulums. Our lives. Our emotions. Where we're at in our lives, in our jobs. Although she did indicate that she had come to terms with the whole 'rut' thing when she said told Shrek he had everything he wanted: a wife who loved him, a family, three children. I'm speaking of dreams and aspirations we have. What we want in life, from life, throughout life; these are our dreams. They are dreams we feel we can and will realize. Which is probably true (if they're realistic and a

Goal Setting

I'm not so sure it's quite cracked up to what it's supposed to be. I was told to set goals-some long some short range. But seriously what's long and what's short? Remodeling our bedrooms and front room of our home. Long or short? Perspective. Supply/demand issues. Marketing/color scheme by major manufacturers change-dramatically about every 10 years. That's an industry standard. Last October/November (2009) I had made decisions for color schemes for our bedroom, office, craft room and living room. I had paint chips. I had made the decision to pay as we go. Painting, ripping out carpet, laying wood laminate flooring, installing new moulding (baseboard and around doors) AND crown moulding takes time... and money... So here we are about six months later. The office is done. The bedroom is almost done. The craft room is almost done. The hall is almost done. And... When I stopped at Home Depot during the week to pick up some more painting stuff for the hall I found t

Let Me Take Care of You

I can't believe that fell out of his mouth. There. Of all places, there ! He was praying for all of us. I can't believe he just said that. What? you ask... "Please bless the leaders of this nation that they will see our needs and fill them." Say what ! I have read this scripture before and heard and thought of many applications for it, but I think it applies here too: "O that ye would awake; awake from a deep sleep, yea, even from the sleep of hell, and shake off the awful chains by which ye are bound, which are the chains which bind the children of men, that they are carried away captive down to the eternal gulf of misery and woe." (Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 1:13) Last time I checked when God 'helps' us, He expects us to pull ourselves up by our bootstraps and dig in and get to work. He teaches us how to fish and expects we catch the worm (bait), put it on the hook, go to a stream and fish-then clean it, cook it and eat it. Gone are the days when man

Liar

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He is a big fat liar. He says that it's delicious to the taste and very desirable. He doesn't even have a body so he can't taste. He's a liar. He says that he rules this world. That no one can usurp him. Another lie. He can't even rule himself. He influences-as people allow him to-for they have such a need for greed and power over others too. Go figure. Birds of a feather. God has said: "And worlds without number have I created..." (Pearl of Great Price | Moses 1:33) You know, I believe that. I feel there's evidence of that as well. The Hubble telescope (1" in diameter) was pointed at an area of space known to be dark-nothing in it. The shutter was left open for an extended period of time. When the image was finished downloading they found hundreds of galaxies in that tiny 1" of darkest space. I highly doubt that the creation of 'worlds without number' was done all at once. I think the worlds have different start dates. I think this s